my last T threw me into a program and then ran from me when I came back. Guess I'm just a gem to work with, this is the third T that has behaved like this. So, I've been on my own for a while. Been ok, but this time of year is especially hard. I hadn't had a panic attack in months and now the racing thoughts are back and the panic has come with them. I know that the only way to possibly find some one who might actually help me is to try, but I am so afraid to start again because it is so hard when it isn't working. Hard on sense of self, hard on emotions, hard on pocketbook.

Fear sucks....I don't remember being afraid like this when I was younger. Am I the only one that finds the fear harder to deal with as time goes on?