Yes, fear is harder to deal with as time goes on for me. I'm awful sometimes with this because I often leave it up to chance that something outside may somehow influence my state of mind. Not consciously waiting for a hero type of thing, but just a break and well, not waiting...they just kind of happen.

I can see your fear growing because of thre T's failing you. No one wants to try again, butyou must. You know this. You can do it. You dserve the same healing that so manyothers get.

I hope you find the right T this time

Much Love