Its frustrating because I was doing really well, then BOOM outta no where all the crap crashes in.....but I suppose if I really looked at it it isn't out of no where. I had a random call from a former T which kinda started some of the stuff.....I wish it was just 3 T's that I have been pitched from, but it has been more.

It just hit me tonight that the fear really is a big stumbling block in it all. But, I'm afraid that I'm too big of a coward to let these fears out with anyone, and barely myself.