Wow. I can totally empathize. I didn't go through what you went through, but I too had an abusive marriage. In fact, my ex told me that he liked me better "depressed" because I was "clingy".

I'm so sorry for everything you've been through, but you are so strong and brave for leaving someone that could have ultimately - in one way or another - have killed you. I'm glad you're at peace with yourself and living the life that you want. This is very inspiring, and I wish you the best. Much love to you!!