I have been married 3 years in July, and my wife has been aware of my substance abuse history from the get go. It wasn't until we had almost been married a year that I was diagnosed bipolar 1 and I was hospitalized. Since then my wife has admitted that I have been a different person.

I account this to the various medicines I have been put on by my psych doc: currently, Lithium 600mg bid, Latuda 60mg daily (titrating up to 80mg/d), propanolol 10-20mg daily, Clonazapam up to 4/day as needed--need to come down a little soon, and synthoid 100mg daily. This is not including the other medicines I have tried/quit over the past year.

The main point is this: I do smoke pot occasionally: especially, when I am getting depressed or having mixed symptoms. My wife and I are expecting a son any time now. She said if I do not stop smoking pot I will have to move out. I just lost my job because of my disorder, and now I feel like I am being given an ultimatum (be perfect or leave).

Any advice welcome, and spare me the pot is illegal or not beneficial crap. My beliefs are that it is not harmful and has proven helpful (admitted by both my wife and psychdoc) at times. I am at a loss right now.