Last nite I posted on another forum about being terrified because my last session with my T was today. I explicitly asked for support and... 24 hours later, not a single response.

So, I'm coming to you guys, who know my story. I was terrified of facing tonite alone, with nothing but the thought that I would never see my T again. The T who terminated ME, who called the police on me five days before Christmas resulting in a 72-hr stint in the looney bin. Resulting in a $2500 attorney bill to defend against a restraining order by my ex, getting it down from 5 years to 1. I feel really sad, but strangely calm. I thought I would be hysterical tonite.

I hope I'm not being whiny. I'm just trying to work things out in my head. Why did I not want to terminate HIM? I can only think it has something to do with my attachment to him and my giant fear of abandonment. Not wanting my only relationship to be severed. OK, writing this out is upsetting me, so I'll stop here.