I also feel I'm bothering him. And that he'd rather I come in, where he can charge me for a consultation, lol.
I sent him a mail. He's recently done a med tweak when I came out of hospital, but maybe it was too much. I think I was actually supposed to see him 2 weeks after I got out of hospital, which is round about now. It's always frustrating when it seems a med tweak hasn't worked; it's like a let-down.

I need to pull on everything I learnt in therapy to stay strong and not lose it right now. Including that I mustn't overwhelm my support structure.