Well my karaoke birthday party was AMAZING- eighteen people came out!! Close friends sang beautiful songs about forgiveness (The Heart of the Matter, by Don Henley) honesty (Honesty by Billy Joel) I sang a song declaring what I was looking for in the realms of love (Commitment by leann rimes) we sang together and we danced and extended our arms in forgiveness

The birthday dinner was good, and bad. My stepmother has made it certain she HATES me (I have been nothing but sweet and good to her??)
She is making an effort though, she agreed to make an appt with my therapist to learn more about my illness. Most of it is money related- she wants to keep being able to buy $200 purses and own 3 vacation homes, she is even selling the home my Dad provided me (since all I earn is minimum wage working with children..) so she can continue to live as she wants..

She questions my Dad daily whether he slipped me a twenty dollar bill or not as an attempt to help me get by...

So anyway, my stepmother was at my birthday dinner, along with my 3 best friends and my Dad. You could just SENSE how much she hated me, EVERYONE did!! I did nothing, just talked about how much I loved working with kids, asked everyone questions about their life, etc. Everyone thought she was rude to me and basically scared everyone there from ever going to a party with her there again.

So a mixed bag....a fabulous karaoke birthday party afterward, but I had nightmares all night about how much my stepmom hates me...