Im on this roller coaster currently feeling very mixed. I have been thinking though where all this started. Well when i was a kid my parents thought I had a hormone imbalance I dont remember why but they did and I refused to get tested cause I was afraid of needles. I wish I would have agreed then to seek help at least I could have gotten some help and maybe my life wouldnt be in taters as it is now. i feel my life is falling apart again, Im sleeping most of the day, and at the same time I cant quit smiling and feeling happy but at the same time I just wanna go away and hide.

What is going on with me I feel Im in a mixed episode and its only getting worse. It started out without me noticing and now Im back in this odd hole like Im standing in a hole with my head poking out. Ugh Rant over.