thanks... i am getting idea how lithium will work ....

but its just about accepting you need meds isnt it??? i perhaps like fact that i am not on any meds... if i start taking them its like telling everyone in my family/gf that i have bipolar...

I should start meds though, BP has screwed my career quite royally... well not really i can/will most probably bounce back... but still.... ouch! taking meds .... its difficult decision.... and i have to be on lithium for at least a year... just to reduce dosage it takes 4 weeks! last time i discontinued antidepressant after 3-4 months it was horrible time for me for next 3 weeks.....