I had another really weird experience of dissociation yesterday... it wasn't like what I am used to. It was at once more conscious and more separate than it has ever been before. While I was aware of what was going on, I was also aware of an underlying push to keep me safe. It was just very weird. I can't describe it well. It happened right before I saw my new therapist, and continued for most of the time I was talking to him. I really struggled to describe it and understand it.
In my initial post, I wasn't so much looking for a confirmation or denial of a DID dx, but more of wondering if anyone else experiences anything like that. It feels very foreign to me, and not what my limited understanding of dissociative disorders covers. Yesterday definitely threw me for a loop. Unfortunately, my therapist is also just an intern with very little experience in dissociative disorders... He was not really helpful in helping me grasp what I was experiencing... while I am happy to have found someone I want to trust and talk to down here, I'm frustrated by his inexperience at times. I want to work through this crap, not just float on through the days. I really miss my old therapist.