You're comments mean a lot to me. This forum has actually helped me by allowing me to try and help others. Surely I can't be the only one who thinks they are being selfish by posting thier problems. I don't feel like anyone else that posts is being selfish. I guess I set different, harsh rules for myself, and sometimes need to remind myself of that.

We are past all the drugs available. Not just anti-depressants, but cardiac and blood pressure medications that also had less headaches as a side effect. (ever notice that the number one side effect of almost every medication is headache? lol). There are a couple types of opiods. One is an agonist, the other an antagonist. Some are a little of both. I've been on one type for years. One night I had to go to the ER for a really bad breakthrough, and although they had my chart and knew what I was taking daily, they gave me an opiod that when given with the ones I"m on, caused an instant, full blown withdrawl. They had to peel me off the wall.

Oh the joys of life. Well, as long as I have the ability to help others andcontribute some to society, I feel I really have no choice to stick around. Suicide is not a blk and white issue. In general, I don't condone it, but for those who have terminal, painful conditions that are going to kill them regardless of what is done, and they are tolerant to all pain meds, I could condone it or at least let them choose. I guess that is a hot topic because of some religious beliefs, and I don't mean to upset or bash any religion. Just acknowledging the difference.

Sam2