Hi Amy, and WELCOME to the Board. Do you take any antidepressant? I'm not a Dr., but I know I have felt as you do many times, and only when I finally got on the right antidepressant (Celexa) did I come out of that dark hole.

As I'm sure you know, depression distorts our perceptions, thoughts, feeling, everything.

If you saw a general MD he/she might be able to prescribe something at least to help you get out of the hole, or go to an emergency room if you have to.

You and your kids deserve for you to do whatever it takes to get help.

Warmest regards, Peanut

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