Eva,

I can understand what you are going through. What you went through would definitely cause anyone to fear a dentist. I have a similar fear only I can't point to anything that has caused the fear. My teeth are so bad that they continually are breaking. The last dentist I went to 3 years ago told me I had 6 teeth that needed pulled & needed fillings in the rest because I hadn't gone to the dentist for years & years. Since that point, I have at least 3 more teeth that have broken to the point where they are broken down to the gum. The dentist I went to said that the roots of the broken teeth are crooked.

I have no money nor dental insurance so I cancelled the appointment. The dentist was going to just numb my mouth & pull 4 of the teeth. The thought of being awake listening to the teeth being pulled & probably having to be dug out just set off my anxiety attacks. I swore at the time I wouldn't have anything done unless they could knock me completely out. By this point, they might as well pull all of my teeth because the decay has spread to all of my remaining teeth. Having no money keeps me from doing anything at all at this time, but that is just a good excuse for me too. My fear is so bad I just can't get myself to even make an appointment.

I have been lucky in that there is no pain.....the only thing that I can think of that keeps the pain away is that I am on a huge amount of fentynal for my migraines. When you talked about your infections getting into your jaw, I am wondering what is keeping is from doing that with my problem.

I hope you can get to the point you can get the help you need.....maybe some day, I will get brave enough too.

Debbie