Hi Im new to the forum, didn't know where else to come for help and advice. Its all my fault my relationship with my partner feels shaky. I have been with him nearly 10 months and I've put him through alot.
He got so angry with me a few nights ago because of my jealousy. It's really bad, I get these crazy thooughts in my head that he is cheating on me or is going to fall in love with someone else and the poor guy has done nothing wrong but support me.
I had a psychotic break and admitted myself int hospital in November, which really freaked him out. I was so off the planet. He has stuck by me though.
He is a fair bit older than me Im 23 and he is 39 and when I get jealous he keeps saying well I can really see the age difference now.

He is still angry with me and is talking to me really short and snapping at me sometimes, and when I tell him I dont like to be talked to that way he says well you expect everything to be fine and dandy? I will forgive you in my own time.

Its like the thing I absolutely fear most, as in losing him, I am causing myself. Now I am anxious all the time worried what he thinks of me. We were really close up until a few weeks ago. We would do everything together.

What can I do? I think I need to give him some space, I am at home all day, dont have many friends and I get so bored.
I start a new job on Thursday, Im just hoping I can meet some friends there and give the poor guy a break. I feel awful about it all. I love him so much.

Everything is ok for now as he said if I wanted you out he would have kicked me out, but I just feel we're so distant at the moment.

Please any advice would be great.