I had to leave work early today. I almost started crying for no reason. I only have 8 hours of time off (we combine sick and vacation), so if I take tomorrow off, I won't have another day for 2 weeks at least. It's been hard with time off, but I really don't know if I can handle going in tomorrow. I guess we'll see what tomorrow morning brings.

I feel like a failure even thinking about not going into work. I don't know if I will ever be able to earn enough time for a proper vacation week. My daughter's illness forced me to use up so much and my own depression caused me to miss a lot of days. My paycheck is all we have, so I have to be able to make it the next two weeks without taking time off so I don't go unpaid.

Honestly I really can't take the day off tomorrow anyway. It will look bad and I'm sure I will be looked down upon for not being able to hold my own through tough times.