I feel like a monster a lot of times. people tell me that i'm not, but I can't help but wonder if they were to feel the way that I do... if they would run away screaming. screaming "monster!"

I totally get it. but for as much as you feel like a monster, there is a part of you that does not feel that way. that part of you must really be hurting.. it is for me when I turn to the monster instead.

these things will pass. when? I don't know... but just keep in mind that you won't always feel the depression and the anxiety, nervousness and restlessness that come with a mixed episode.

take care of yourself, and looking forward to hearing how things are going in the morning.