Thank you Sky, Myself, and Debbie, for sharing and being supportive as I battle trying to follow thru with my next appointment.

Hind site being what it is, I dont know why I just didnt kick him or slap him or something as he was doing this...just froze..my reactions are always so off when it comes to this kinda of stuff..then not to tell someone afterwards..I guess it really has allot to do with the childhood abuse issues..everything seems to revolve around force and secrets..and dont you dare tell..it will only make things worse..

I have thought about writing the military dental clinic and telling them what happened ((Myself)), it may help me gain some control over that episode at least, where I would feel heard after just enduring it in silence..

(((Debbie)))..I am sorry you have the issues with dentist too, and teeth problems...Dentists are very expensive..even with insurance they put a big hurt on someone financially..but the dentist who saw me after the incident..was able to tell real quick on xray the damage, and where the infection had spread into the lower jaw..the surgery was very hard to deal with...because I would not let them put me under or use IV sedation..he just kept giving me more and more local shots in the area to keep me numb while he worked on it..he told me he normally does the procedure in the OR..but..I think he knew if he pushed it I would probably just have dissappeared into the woodowork and ended up with more damage to my jaw, or worse..so he worked with me and my comfort zone..which is locals only..I can deal with the physical pain...its the other untangible horror of not being able to respond to what he is doing..which does not make any sense does it...when my repsonse is paralyzing fear anyway..geeze..this doesn't make sense...

I actually have considered having them all pulled and just getting false teeth...oh well..the trials and tribulations of my dental appoint saga continues...I wonder if I will actually keep this one..sorry about the length of the post but thank you for replying..

((Sky)) I was diagnosed with TMJD..(TemporalMandibilar Joint Disorder)..years ago...but kinda just deal with the pain and inflammation..and thank you for suggestion..