Bella, I know this is not what you expected but I want to entertain you a bit.

I posted a profile on a dating site and went on vacation soon thereafter. In the short period of time before the vacation I went on two lunch dates.

One guy has depression and is on Lexapro and now emails me updates about his mood fluctuations.

The other spent ten thousand dollars on therapy in nine months. I do not know further details because I decided not to deal with someone who spends so much on therapy.

The morale of this is: other people have their own issues and mental health concerns. You are not the only woman with schizophrenia in the world. You will be accepted by someone else. Just get out there and one day someone will be sharing his delusions with you.