Thank you, all. It's really hard for me to view bad things happening as growth experiences -- I resent them so much!

I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one that gets attached to T. This T - I guess he's my xT now, kept trying to convince me that I don't need to like a T nor do they need to like me in order to successfully treat me. I just can't see it. Out of the 2 referrals that I've seen, both were really cold and one seemed downright *****y to me. xT seemed to try to convince me that they could help me anyway. Aaagh! That just made me feel invalidated, like I couldn't trust my feelings or intuition. So, that said, I am shopping for another T, but I'm discouraged because the first 2 didn't work out.

I felt extremely sad today and had some trouble concentrating at work. I'm T-less! I'm a T orphan! And I decided not to go to my web class tonight because I was just too depressed. I know I should "do the opposite" of how I feel, but I just CAN'T when I'm in the throes. How do you make yourself do something when with every fiber of your being you feel like crap?