I have been in a long term relationship (5years) I was seventeen when we started dating by eighteen we were living together. I have drifted in our relationship a few times the last couple years never sexual and that's one reason I feel so confused. Recently I did it again and my boyfriend still wants to make things work but I have to figure out why I keep sabotaging our relationship . He has his downfalls but nothing to deserve what I keep doing! Am I staying in this relationship because its all I know? Guilt ? Do I need to let him go? I was a victim of rape and i wonder if that has anything to do with my relationship issues. What am i looking for obviously it's not for sexual gratification I'm so confused and feel helpless.