I didn't sleep well last night which weakens my ability to cope. I have decided to stay home today and try to take care of myself. Hopefully it will be enough to last a few more weeks rather than needing time off every couple weeks. I plan to try to work on some creative things today so I can hopefully do something that makes me feel good about myself rather than sleep all day.

Thanks for all the support. It's not an easy decision and I'll be second guessing myself for a while, but I feel like the responsible thing to do is to protect myself from an outburst. Not sleeping much on top of this depressive episode seems to warrant staying home. I see my therapist on Tuesday and my psychiatrist again in a couple of weeks. They can't help me much more than they already have, but maybe something will come up to help me.