so you administered CPR.... wow. You really did do everything that you could....

and your grief counselor told you that you were high risk and then sent you on your way? As my daughter would say, he's acting like a total a.s.s.h.a.t.

He or she doesn't sound all too educated. The impulses for that are prolly overwhelming, but in the end you have seen firsthand the trauma and grief that a loved on leaving this earth brings. I know that you would never do that to the ones that love you!

sooner or later, you'll have to come to terms with the fact that you did everything that you could do. The images, oh man they would mess me up, but those are from the traumatic event. PTSD is my best guess. Have you started any treatment for PTSD? I don't even know what the treatment entails... but it's worth finding out from Pdoc.