Yes I was an EMT at one point and my husband works in the medical field. He did compressions I did the breaths. I kept saying we needed suction, to clear his airway of vomit. Now I think why didn't I think of a small hand held vacuum I have. There are so many What ifs.

Yes it probably is PTSD. You are right after seeing that I could not do that to my husband.

Off to Reiki