for me....

anxiety - panic - anger - depression - DEFIANCE - rationalization and self talk - new perspective - less depression and anxiety - back to where I started from

If i was where you are now, I would still have a lot of work to do to feel better. this seems to be my pattern. we all have them. growing up though, I never had a complete pattern. I had broken patterns, in my thoughts and actions. maybe there are still steps to take?