hiding while I talk, hiding while i search, searching for something that isn't true to find words for it.

so..... hiding while I'm talking and searching for something that is unreal and not finding the words for it.

that happens to me a lot too. that is why i learned to type so fast, so I can type away until I find the truth. it would be too much to go through my process all in my head, sometimes ya just got to get it out to make sense of it.