Bless your heart. I have a tendency to take on guilt that doesn't belong to me too. It seems that I say 'I'm sorry' alot, when I shouldn't. I HATE that about me. And i'm always the first one to come around after an argument, even when it wasn't my fault. My daughter tends to jump on me about stuff that she remembers wrong -- and I try to gently tell her now it really was, and it enrages her, and she really goes ballistic. She has red hair and we're Irish if that tells you anything. LOL But I'm always the one to say "I'm sorry" -- when it wasn't my fault -- and I HATE that I do that. But I do it every darn time. I think it's because I hate confrontation & I hate anger and resentments.

It all stems from my childhood. My parents were always fighting and mad at each other. I just can't tolerate that now. I can't stand having people mad at me, or anyone mad at each other in the house. It drives me insane.

Did you have any violence in your childhood, or any abuse? Were you blamed for alot of things as a child? Were you bullied or picked on? Do you remember much of your childhood?

Many times our growing up years can have a huge effect on our adult years. I've gone thru therapy due to my childhood, and I still have a few issues, but most of them were taken care of in therapy, thank God. It sounds like you have to watch your pennies, or I'd suggest therapy for YOU too. It would be beneficial for you, if you could swing it. Do you have insurance that would pay for it? You might look into it and see if it would pay for it.

I wish you the very best. I know how you feel my friend. God bless you and please take care. Hugs, Lee