I used to self medication to calm myself down but the fact that i was going to have a child changed eveything, i gave up the drinking, tried pot once, would not try it again, as it made me sick. do you have a plan on how to selfmedicate and raise a child. i also hope your partner can handle alot as it would take alot to do when you have another to help out with. My son's father was an alcholic i only could stand it for so long. i ended up leaving and it was the best thing i ever did, he would have ruined all of our lives. please i hope you get help, Therapy works so good,i' not trying to pull any punches but maybe you could take a look at the positive of helping yourself, one of my close friends drank regulary on klonapin and she ended up having a stroke at age 30. she took a whole bottle of the stuff. i hope you don't get angry at me but it reminded me of her, i don't even know if she is still alive as even though she had a stroke she still took the pills with no control.