I know i shouldn't let my past experience colour my future ones Lola but I don't think I can bring this up with her because I brought up all the yucky stuff with me, sexuality, body issues this week and she didn't take them very seriously. I felt worse afterwards she kind of made out that I am fine and that this is not a big dealk and I have choices and that the choices I have made in the past have not helped me, she like to do Cbt but I just need to hear something more from her.
it was not my fault or my choice to be abused or cheated on or not loved by my mother and now ever since seeing her I feel angry and am crying all the time and hate myself more because I feel like everything is my fault.