When i say hiding in my room, i am still "hiding in my room", but i bring it with me where ever i go. As (((open eyes))) says below, I feel like i should know what to do and be okay. I may not be Mr Masculine, but i still feel a need to to be cool and collected. So when i experience adverse emotions, i just shrink away, i dont argue or stand up for myself, because i dont want anyone to see how emotional and insecure i can be. Its not entirely unconscious, my avoidance of conflict, its very often intentional. I know that i will fumble over my words, and come off as unintelligent, if not insecure.

I think a lot of hide from something. It is a fascinating process to uncover all those little hidden dimensions of ourselves. As scary as it is, i have learned to love it. I try hard to stay strong enough to keep it up!