I'm sorry you are feeling so much anxiety. Did something in particular happen?

I've found with my T that when I take a huge risk and do something I never though I could do that it pays off in the end. It feels horrible at the time, but our relationship grows.

I've always thought you had a great T on your hands. But you will know for sure what is best.

I've only ever had 1 long-term T. If your insurance will allow it, I'd test out a few other Ts while still seeing your current one.