I’m getting those horoscopes again --
“A change of luck shows you that a prize is dangling well within reach… you achieve a long-sought-after goal, and you're about to reap many financial benefits.”

The thing is, I’ve noticed a lessening of bad things in my life, in the last couple of months, but nothing really great. While a lessening of the bad things is nice, it’s sort of like dying of thirst and being given a thimbleful of water, instead of a glass of water. I feel like my life has been a war zone, and there’s been a cease fire. But what I want is to win the Nobel Prize or the lottery or something. I’m tired of settling. I’ve always referred to my life as an “at least” life – you know, “at least you have a roof over your head,” “at least you’ve got food in the frig,” etc. While I watch other people live in nice houses, with families who care about them, money in the bank, and successful careers. I’m trying to be grateful for tidbits. Then I get horoscopes like these, and I hope and pray so much that they’re going to be right. But nothing has come yet (if it ever will). I don’t want to stop reading them – it’s the only thing that gives me hope. But it also causes great anxiety. Gawd…