Thanks for the advice. I rewrote the last paragraph. It didn't quite say what I wanted it to say.

Below is the revised paragraph.

" When we meet it was a major turning point in my life. You’re the first person in my life to make me feel like I mattered. You gave me a sense like I belonged somewhere and I could be accepted. I realized what I needed in my life to truly be happy. A relationship like we have. I think this is a psychological need for me. Without being around people that care about me and like me, it makes me feel useless and unwanted which only adds to my depression. I need to be around people that are healthy for me, and not in my old environment that I grew up in. I need to be around people that I feel accepted and that I don’t feel like a burden. I think growing up with my family I never had the sense of belonging and I think it has hurt me more than I knew at the time. Being with you has made me realize I should be happy and I don’t deserve to feel miserable all the time. Sometimes I feel so ashamed and guilty for being depressed. That’s why I never really talked about it, other than saying “I’m depressed”. I feel like if I tell people, I will be this black hole of hopelessness and despair and everyone around me doesn’t want me to be around. I think this comes from family experiences, from trying to reach out and people saying I have nothing to feel sad for and get over it. Sometimes I close myself off. I pretend like everything is fine and try and focus on work and school, instead of dealing with what is bothering me.
Doing this doesn’t help anything. It makes it harder to deal with as well as making me feel alone. I don’t want to be alone with this. I’m not asking you to be my personal cheerleader, I just want to be able to tell you how I feel and not be dismissed or have you be upset with me for going through this. It is an incredibly awful feeling to tell someone how you feel and then have them be angry with you because you feel sad. I know it has to be difficult on you dealing with me sometimes. I’m sorry for this. It makes me feel like a bad husband and makes me think no one can love me or wants to be around me. I know you must get angry when I sleep all day. It’s not healthy for someone to sleep 18 hours a day, but sometimes that is all I feel I can do. Just ride things out until I feel better. Maybe that is a bad way to handle these feeling, maybe I should just talk to you, but I’m afraid. I’m sorry if you feel like I don’t want you when I get really down. Nothing can be further from the truth. You give me the strength to fight it. You give me a reason to hang on and not give into all the emotions that make me feel worthless, and complete hopeless about my life. You are my one light in the despair of depression. I find strength with you by my side. I want to get back into therapy. I need to get this issues dealt with and find better ways to cope. I need to learn how to love myself.
I know you want children and I am hesitant about it. It’s because of how overwhelming these feelings are. I get scared of myself sometimes. It’s scary to know I can feel so bad that I want to end my life. Even when everything isn’t complete horrible, I get thoughts about suicide. It’s not like I want to end my life, but when I feel depressed I just want it to stop. Your love for me gives me the will power to fight these emotions, but it scares me that I have them. How can be a good parent if I feel like hurting myself? How do I explain why daddy doesn’t feel good to a 5 year old? Another part of me wants children. I want to know what it is like to have a smiling little face look up to me because I mean the world to them. I want to be there for them, to watch them grow up and have happy healthy lives. I want to know what it feels like to have the love a child feels for their dad. I need to have a support system. Handling all this on my own obviously hasn’t worked and I want you to know how I feel. I just want to be able to openly talk about this stuff and not feel ashamed or have you angry at me. You mean the world to me and I want to be the best husband I can be. I need to find ways to better handle these feelings. I want to be the man you feel in love with. I want to be the happy person that jokes around and enjoys life. You mean the world to me, and you make me truly happy and I feel loved."