(((pegasus))),

You hit a key reason when you mentioned that "worrying" was a part of your childhood. Most likely you were around people that impressed on you that "life needs to contain a lot of worrying". Children really do "imprint" on these things. But a need for worry can also come from a childhood where a child did not feel safe.

What I have been working on alot is learning how to take more control over that "need to worry", frankly I am getting too old for it and I need my sleep.

What I began to do is when I was struggling badly with PTSD cycles, I would go up and lay down and allow my brain to just float "freely", much like meditation. Often I had anxiety too, along with all that worry, because let's face it, worrying leads to "anxiety". I just decided that I would make it a point to give my brain permission to "not worry". As soon as I find myself going into beginning to think about all the things I can worry about, I say no, and I let my mind float like it is a cloud or settling on the water and just floating only allowed to think of pleasant things. Even if I wake up in the middlie of the night, and begin to worry, I say no, let it go and again allow my brain to float.

Pegasus, I gotta tell ya, it works, when I find myself getting too busy and troubled, I make myself let go. I sleep so much better now because I am training myself to let go and it is a skill anyone can learn to do. Worrying comes from "habit" and you do have the power to change that "habit". I never thought I would be able to say this, because I was always the queen of worry, but I am getting better and better at changing that and I am alot older than you. As soon as it starts, I just say nope, I am not going to think about that and worry, and I push it aside and float. It is not disassociating either, it is a relaxing float that will only allow pleasant calm thoughts.

If "I" can do it so can anyone IMO.