I'm so sorry you're having such moodswings.  I know how terrible moodswings can be. -.-
I think you should try to cope with all the stressful things that you listed. Perhaps make a list of things that you could try to make everything feel better? For example, you're leaving your friends and family behind in the US - call and message them as much as possible and remind yourself that you'll see them again soon. You have to live with people you barely know - you can comfort yourself in that this is a rare and great experience and you'll be able to meet some new, interesting people that may turn out to be your best friends eventually.
You wrote a list of 5 stressors; try to make a list of positive things to cancel out the negative ones. Try to remember that this is a valuable and unusual experience that you've been blessed to have, and that you'll learn many things from it & you'll be back at home and enjoying normal life soon enough. But for now you should embrace your current situation and make the best of it.  I hope that everything turns out well for you!
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I'm Jenna & I'm 16 years old. I'm currently undergoing treatment at a partial hospitalization program, for 6 hours everyday. The entire program is roughly 3 months long.
Diagnoses: Bipolar II Disorder, GAD, OCD
Meds: 50mg Pristiq, 50mg Seroquel, 600mg Lithium
Previous Meds: 20mg Lexapro, 50mg Seroquel XR, 600mg Trileptal
You woke up this morning with a heartbeat, and that should be reason enough to wake up again tomorrow.
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