Sounds like you're incredibly frustrated. Perhaps it would be worthwhile to see the deeper feelings that the frustration is covering....It seems that you pointed out all of the things you didn't choose - which are very important.

My T has mentioned something similar, along the lines of having the power to change or accept....and it was hard to hear. I felt embarrassed by the idea that I was to blame for my situation. That wasn't his intent. It was merely to point out that I have power - and it's very true. There were times when I was younger that I didn't have power and was hurt. I am not that child anymore. I can choose to be a victim or work towards integrating the experiences in a way that promotes greater health. We have choices. Accepting that sometimes is met with resistance, and that's worth exploring.

I, too, hate my body. I CAN choose to work on changing that. I tend to make excuses about my medical issues limiting my ability, or my life circumstances, etc. - but if I really make a strong effort, it can be done. So, why don't I do it? There's something stopping me, but I don't know what.

Perhaps it's something worth delving into further.