Thank you both for your replies, but am sorry I disagree, but appreciate your words.
A doctor here in the uk does home visits, and has a duty of care. I didn't ring at 3am, or ask her to do anything unreasonable, or to discuss the weather. She was on duty, she's a doctor. In fact, I didn't even ask for a visit. I needed one though, or at least some support. If I could go to the surgery, would I not do that ?
No my legs aren't broken, just my spirit.
It took a lot for me to pick up the phone.
I need/needed help, and support.
I don't have friends.