I'm also sorry that you are going through this. It can be very difficult to handle. It's crazy that the thoughts that are exact opposite of your personality pop in your head. I guess that's why they catch your attention in the first place. I've dealt with it for the longest time and never knew what it was. I thought I was seriously crazy! But after I began to research I began to realize. I guess I need to not personalize the thoughts so much. Like I said though sometimes the thoughts actually frighten me. Mine basically are that I'm going "to allow" or "accept" something bad in my heart or life...plus the stuff I mentioned earlier. I have some bad habits (cigs) I am trying to quit...which is harrrrd! That also doesn't help with the religious aspect of things! I am trying though! When did your ocd start?