Tomorrow happens to be my birthday... I've been asked what I want but there's nothing that I really need, or even want. I"ll be spending most of my day alone, if people let me. I just need a day to myself. To just figure out everything. a lot of things have been on my mind.

But at the same time, I"m at a hard spot.... I just don't know what else to do anymore. SI didn't help this last time, I almost want to try a different method, but is that really going to help.

I don't know what else to do. Tomorrow is all about me... but I just can't stand feeling this way, or trying to act like everything is okay to everyone. Now its time for sleep to work for a few hours tomorrow.