Thank you so much for your words.
To ring for an ambulance would be a tad dramatic though. There's no way of getting to a hospital on my own. I feel too weak, honestly, to stand in a shower, even, simply due to sparodic eating and huge lethargy. I look like a tramp and am aware of that, some previous comments above about my hygiene, are not relevant or helpful.
I've been awake all night and at 5am gone now, I can just turn over and try to sleep away today. Then comes tomorrow.
Yes I pray, hard, but he doesn't listen.
Thank you for your post.