It makes me sad that you hate your body. Dont succumb to that change nonsense. Just be yourself.
I find large women to be very attractive and it poses problems for me because I am a married female. Most of those women wouldnt have a clue that i am looking at them that way. But I long for them and dream about them.
I am completely flat chested but I dont care, and people have told me so, and I still dont care. Im cool with it. Its who I am.

Love yourself including your body, and your personality, and this allows others to love you. Its like an open door.
Im cheering for you!
Cyn