(((Ladyzero)))

I am sorry that you are so depressed and wishful to end your misery. I have been in that state of mind a time or two myself. Thankfully, those times have passed for me.

Have you experienced times like these before? If so, perhaps you could try to remind yourself that things did get easier for you before ~ it did take awhile, some medications, a lot of therapy...but the misery did pass. The memory may only bring a sense of calm for a minute or two, but you can keep reminding yourself in order to make it through until you get the care that you need.

I can understand that it feels a bit extreme to call paramedics for help, but sometimes we need help in doing even seemingly simple tasks. Have you been drinking water and other fluids? The wooziness and weakness are most likely due to dehydration.

Please do get help. Part of you really does want that help. Please let yourself reach out and pick up the phone to call for an ambulance.