They wouldn't laugh at you, Ladyzero...
Have you thought about calling a phone support center in your area? I'm not sure what part of the UK you're in...but try the Samaritans and/or Rethink Mental Illness. Please give it a try. It can't hurt you, right?
Phone: 08457 90 90 90 (24-hour helpline) ~ Samaritans
Phone: 0300 5000 927 ~ Rethink Mental Illness
Have a tall glass of water too, okay?