Hello,

New to this kind of thing, posting online or anything like this. I have dealt with D.I.D., for what seems like all my life, but was diagnosed about 5 years ago. Having the diagnoses seems like it makes people think I am weak, or like it is a character flaw. I personally struggle with that myself. I want to be whole, one thought in my head, one person always present.

If I have to be more than that, I want to know healing can happen. Hopefully it can happen without a therapist, because I'm not sure I trust them any more.

I do wonder, what if they are wrong? What if I am not truly D.I.D.? Except I hear inside that isn't true. I have understood through therapy that I was massively hurt as a younger person, but how do I get over that. I hear it, but just want to say, "Ok, now what?"

I have been told that I do not express or feel enough emotions, but in my mind some emotions are weakness too.

I'm sorry if it was a lot of rambling. I do have a lot of thoughts going through my head!!