I don't know about anyone but myself, but I have an innate distrust for people. I've also had many bad experiences with psychiatrists and psychologists that have helped to shape my distrust, in addition to all of my negative social interactions throughout my life.

"Because we fear someone would try to change us and we might lose that authentic Self that's struggling to make itself known" This statement also rings especially true for me, and I just can't make anyone aware of how or why I feel this way, which just further discourages me.

I've recently admitted myself to the hospital and been referred to a free mental health clinic (I am uninsured currently), and even been taking my medication, and will continue to do so for at least a month to see if there is a benefit. I've also been approved for 8 therapy sessions, so we will see if I am able to open myself up enough to gain anything from my sessions.

It's all a matter of facing my fears of the medical community and addressing the deep seeded negative thought patterns that have taken over my life, and it varies for everyone. You have to recognize that you are in fact worthy of feeling good, and accept and face the challenges that you must overcome to be more content.