I find it hard to make real friends. And I donīt mean people I generally like to hang out with and have coffee with but friends, that I can truely open up to and show all of me and be actually really and fully myself.
I guess itīs because I have so many vulnerable sides in me, or "triggers" that can give me intense anxiety. Or generally my mental health problems. Itīs not so easy to tell this new people and I donīt want to.
Yet, those and my lifeīs problems are a part of me so I need to be able to express those too, to a real friend.
I have thought about joining self-help groups where genereally there are people with simulare difficulties that itīs easier to open up.
Then again, I believe you can learn best from people that donīt necessary have the same problems you do and can give you different perspectives.
Also, you donīt always want to talk about your problems. Sometimes you just want to have a fun time with your friends...
What do you think?
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