when i was like 12 years old i decided never to be in a relationship and never to fall in love. and i managed to do that for years. but a year ago i met a guy and we became best friends but then he told me that he liked me and he wants to be my boyfriend, i asked him to remain just friends because i didn't want to lose him, i don't know if i have feelings for him, i don't know how to recognize it but i miss him when we spend few days without seeing each other and i get jealous when he talks to other girls but when he flirts with me i feel so awkward.
the problem is that there is an other guy, we are close friends and we hang out a lot together and i find myself thinking about him a lot. but then i remember the promise i made and i try to forget. i feel pity for my best friend and i want to be with my other friend. help me choose!