Praise from T doesn't particularly motivate me. In general, my motivation has to come from within.

I do have trouble acknowledging my achievements, so I appreciate it when T does so, and it feels good, but it doesn't motivate me to keep earning praise from her. I don't want to disappoint T, but I also don't want to disappoint anyone. My entire life has been about making other people happy.

So, I don't do things so that T will give me praise. If I've accomplished something I've been working for, it feels good to have that acknowledged and I appreciate the encouragement.

Growing up, praise was always a strange thing for me. I was rewarded for things I didn't really care about or didn't have to work for. The things I cared about and really had to work for always went unnoticed, even when it was super important to me. So, I learned to be my own cheerleader.