I disagree about you having bipolar from what you have said, anxiety and hurting animals are not part of bipolar. Google DSM bipolar symptoms to get the list of criteria for diagnosing someone as having bipolar. You are not the only one who has posted saying they want to be diagnosed but don't want to see a psychiatrist. The fallacy with this is that it doesn't matter what diagnosis you have if you don't get treatment. Why know if you aren't going to change anything. Do you want it to stop? See a psychiatrist.