Thank you all replying. To those who think my therapist was trying to help; I am sorry, but I do not understand it. Maybe, I am sooo hurt at this moment. I am going though to give him my writing -- at the end I always do -- and I am going to see what he will say. I doubt, however, that we'll get anywhere. I will probably end up trapped in silence and crying the whole time. I rarely talk. I write to him and/or cry the whole session. It is sooo painful, I doubt if it is even helpful. I only go because I cannot be alone. From that point of view, it is a little helpful. Oh! Oh! I am sooo tired, so hurt, soooo confused, and soooooo angry at him; I could hate him in an instant. That is soo bad.